Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Wonderland
Here I am, in my new "home" where everything is different from where I grew up and well...got used to.
My Wonderland*...
Just like Alice, a whole new world in front of me just waiting for me to explore it.
My first night here - In Canada - was seriously a story. I arrived at the airport then took a taxi and went to this address that I have to meet my "roommate" in his house. When I actually arrived the house was pitch black and the weather was chilly and I was walking on snow for the first time, snow that I've only seen in the freezer. so I knocked and no one answered. The taxi driver was nagging so I just gave him the money and took my luggage and put them on the front porch.
I went to the neighbors next door and there was this old granny who turned out to be "just visiting" and this was her son's house and he was out. so there I was in the cold in the middle of nowhere - at least for me - just wondering around the block looking for this guy. later on the woman's son came and invited me to his house and he called my roommate who turned out to be in the airport waiting for me...
What a great way to start my first night out of Kuwait and on my own. It would be a great Christmas story as Bonnie - the old lady - said.
I'm currently self-learning. A Sponge just absorbing whatever it touches. I'm learning the basics of survival, building my self esteem and confidence, trying to be more social or in other words, I'm coming out of my shell and starting to experience life.
As I said, I'm in my Winter Wonderland. and as the great Gloria Gaynor once said, "I Will Survive".
*Did you know that Wonderland is actually called Underland but Alice had misheard it?
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Leaving The Nest
Goodbye...
How many times you had to say that? to people, places, animals or even "dead stuff"?
Today is kinda my last day in Kuwait. I'll go to Canada in the early morning. Honestly? I've never been alone ever. ever since I was a kid, Mom, Bro & I never really separated. a Triangle as my aunt once described us.
I feel like I'm a bird leaving the nest. I'm having mixed up feelings. I'm nervous, excited, sad, Happy all at the same time. I just gotta let go no?
since this Post is the most personal one yet, I don't really know what I'm saying. I'm just expressing myself.
We all hate goodbyes. maybe not all goodbyes are bad or sad but mostly they're very emotional. I personally always cry, although I always say that I Won't cry. but there's always 'good' in goodbye, you just gotta look for it. In my case, as I told my mom: " Don't cry cuz it's the end, be happy cuz it's the beginning." it really is!
I Always thought that my life is a book. and right now I'm on the last page of the first chapter. all that has passed is something and all the yet to come is something else. So since Life's changing around me then I'm gonna make it mine.
my friend told me that I shouldn't be sad or anything because people come in and out of my life and I shouldn't think about the stuff that I'm gonna miss here. Instead, I should about the exciting stuff I'm gonna experience there!
in this post I'm gonna put two songs for the two sides. The first one is me leaving my heart in Kuwait and saying goodbye to everything. literally. I kept saying goodbye to my bed, walls, doors, furniture, TV...etc. I seriously love this song and it describes half of me right now.
The OTHER half of me, the happy and excited one says that it's gonna be an adventure and yes I'll go through some hard time but I'm up to it. after all, I am unwritten...
How many times you had to say that? to people, places, animals or even "dead stuff"?
Today is kinda my last day in Kuwait. I'll go to Canada in the early morning. Honestly? I've never been alone ever. ever since I was a kid, Mom, Bro & I never really separated. a Triangle as my aunt once described us.
I feel like I'm a bird leaving the nest. I'm having mixed up feelings. I'm nervous, excited, sad, Happy all at the same time. I just gotta let go no?
since this Post is the most personal one yet, I don't really know what I'm saying. I'm just expressing myself.
We all hate goodbyes. maybe not all goodbyes are bad or sad but mostly they're very emotional. I personally always cry, although I always say that I Won't cry. but there's always 'good' in goodbye, you just gotta look for it. In my case, as I told my mom: " Don't cry cuz it's the end, be happy cuz it's the beginning." it really is!
I Always thought that my life is a book. and right now I'm on the last page of the first chapter. all that has passed is something and all the yet to come is something else. So since Life's changing around me then I'm gonna make it mine.
my friend told me that I shouldn't be sad or anything because people come in and out of my life and I shouldn't think about the stuff that I'm gonna miss here. Instead, I should about the exciting stuff I'm gonna experience there!
in this post I'm gonna put two songs for the two sides. The first one is me leaving my heart in Kuwait and saying goodbye to everything. literally. I kept saying goodbye to my bed, walls, doors, furniture, TV...etc. I seriously love this song and it describes half of me right now.
The OTHER half of me, the happy and excited one says that it's gonna be an adventure and yes I'll go through some hard time but I'm up to it. after all, I am unwritten...
Friday, December 16, 2011
Hope
I'll start this post with a little mythical story.
"In classic Greek mythology, Pandora was the first woman on earth. Zeus ordered Hephaestus, the god of craftsmanship, to create her, so he did—using water and earth. The gods endowed her with many talents: Aphrodite gave her beauty, Apollo gave music and Hermes, persuasion. The gods also gave her the gift of curiosity.
When Prometheus stole fire from heaven, Zeus took vengeance by presenting Pandora to Epimetheus, Prometheus' brother. With her, Pandora was given a beautiful jar which she was not to open under any circumstance. Impelled by her curiosity given to her by the gods, Pandora opened the jar, and all evil contained escaped and spread over the earth. She hastened to close the lid, but the whole contents of the jar had escaped, except for one thing that lay at the bottom, which was Hope. Pandora was deeply saddened by what she had done, and was afraid that she would have to face Zeus' wrath, since she had failed her duty; however, Zeus did not punish her, because he knew this would happen."
Why did I start with this story? well cuz Pandora is one of my Fav Myths and because I'm gonna talk about what has been left in the box. that's right, Hope.
To me hope is what keeps you going. it's the battery that keeps you moving. The candle that lights your darkest nights. It makes you believe that better stuff are yet to come. I'm mostly Optimistic. I mean I just hope for better stuff. yes I may be tired and gonna give up but I keep going through it till I reach my goal cuz I'm hoping.
Hope is something essential in our life. without hope, life wouldn't exist. It's said that the darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn. You shouldn't give up because everything is "Maktub" as we -Arabs- say which literally means that "It's Written" now you're saying "if everything's is already Maktub then why should I try?" well you should try because it'll teach you not to give up. you can't just hope, you gotta try.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Sparks Of Creativity
"Be Creative." that's what my friend always tells me when I try to think of doing something. it gets annoying sometimes cuz I need some help but overall it pushes you.
Creativity! what is it? Is coming up with something that no one ever thought of? is it "thinking outside the box"? is it being Original? or is it all the above?
to me Creativity is everything I just said. all you need is an idea, time and lots of work. I decided to write this post after going to an expo under the name "The Art Of Can" as you can see from the pic.
it was held in a local mall called 360. My Brother & I dropped by and were fascinated by some of the work there. they were CREATIVE and thought outside the box to turn the simple Red Bull can to something unusual and unique.
here are some pics I took.
Creativity! what is it? Is coming up with something that no one ever thought of? is it "thinking outside the box"? is it being Original? or is it all the above?
to me Creativity is everything I just said. all you need is an idea, time and lots of work. I decided to write this post after going to an expo under the name "The Art Of Can" as you can see from the pic.
it was held in a local mall called 360. My Brother & I dropped by and were fascinated by some of the work there. they were CREATIVE and thought outside the box to turn the simple Red Bull can to something unusual and unique.
here are some pics I took.
The Kuwait Towers
Just Jammin
Swingin By
Red Bull Flowers
WALL-E.....lookalike
Scorpion...well duh.
The Red Bull Bull
this is what happens when you drink too much Red Bull
Ready, Set, RED BULL!
Red Bull Plane
Seeking Red Bull (this is my personal Fav)
and I made this one waaaaaay before the Expo :P
As you saw, the everyday Red Bull can turned into stuff you didn't even think it could be! those are only some of the stuff which were there.
You know that moment in Cartoons when a light bulb appears above someone's head indicating that s/he has an idea? well that light bulb exists! but it's invisible and it appears inside of your head. everyone sometimes has an idea or something but they don't work hard enough to turn it to reality. those Ideas or Light Bulbs or Sparks are inside each and every one of us.
So in order to make it happen "You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine. Just own the night like the 4th of July. cuz baby you're a Firework." :P cheesy line no? but I'm serious! somehow these sparks can turn to a firework!
Monday, December 5, 2011
Scaredy Cat
I'm a scaredy cat, I confess. I have never ending phobias from lots of stuff. Some of them are really ridiculous whilst others are normal or in other words they are "common".
There are two types of fear, the physical fear and the emotional/ spiritual fear. however we don't develop the emotional kind till we grow up. when we were kids, most of us were scared of the dark or monsters under the bed or snakes or anything. When we grew up and understood that we're a part of a society, other fears came up like the fear of rejection or not "blending in" or anything else.
I asked on Twitter " What Scares You The Most?" and these are some of the answers that I got.
@IAmHish simply said: "Death."
@Dalowaisi said: "Losing the one I Love."
@MikuWalker said: "Dark Places."
@_Meeno said: "Heights."
@Peek3boo said: "Getting Old."
As you can see, each and every one has his/her own fear. " We are afraid of losing what we have, whether it's our life or our possessions and property. But this fear evaporates when we understand that our life stories and the history of the world were written by the same hand." ~ Paulo Coelho.
As for me, I'm afraid of Snakes, Spiders, Stairs, Wood logs, Big Trucks, Traffic, Needles.....that's the physical ones. I know I know, you're probably like " wood logs?! " I'm always afraid of falling down and getting a nail right through my head ._.
WHAT can we do to get rid of the fear? we can't. but we can adapt no? I mean take Courage The Cowardly Dog for example. he's a scaredy cat....sort of. but he always overcomes his fear in order to save his loved ones. that and to entertain us during the episode. Some people LIVE on the adrenaline they got from watching horrific bloody horror movies. you just gotta accept it. Try to overcome your fear. there's nothing stopping you from doing that except yourself! and if that didn't work then RUN FOR YOUR LIFE.
There are two types of fear, the physical fear and the emotional/ spiritual fear. however we don't develop the emotional kind till we grow up. when we were kids, most of us were scared of the dark or monsters under the bed or snakes or anything. When we grew up and understood that we're a part of a society, other fears came up like the fear of rejection or not "blending in" or anything else.
I asked on Twitter " What Scares You The Most?" and these are some of the answers that I got.
@IAmHish simply said: "Death."
@Dalowaisi said: "Losing the one I Love."
@MikuWalker said: "Dark Places."
@_Meeno said: "Heights."
@Peek3boo said: "Getting Old."
As you can see, each and every one has his/her own fear. " We are afraid of losing what we have, whether it's our life or our possessions and property. But this fear evaporates when we understand that our life stories and the history of the world were written by the same hand." ~ Paulo Coelho.
As for me, I'm afraid of Snakes, Spiders, Stairs, Wood logs, Big Trucks, Traffic, Needles.....that's the physical ones. I know I know, you're probably like " wood logs?! " I'm always afraid of falling down and getting a nail right through my head ._.
WHAT can we do to get rid of the fear? we can't. but we can adapt no? I mean take Courage The Cowardly Dog for example. he's a scaredy cat....sort of. but he always overcomes his fear in order to save his loved ones. that and to entertain us during the episode. Some people LIVE on the adrenaline they got from watching horrific bloody horror movies. you just gotta accept it. Try to overcome your fear. there's nothing stopping you from doing that except yourself! and if that didn't work then RUN FOR YOUR LIFE.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Bubble
Who among us doesn't have problems going in his/her life? Even children have some tough time picking the color of the crayon they want to use to paint the car which usually ends up being red.
Sometimes, when I'm sad, I listen to sad songs and watch a sad movie and end up being sadder and depressed and let everything go downhill. I usually cry it out because there's no shame of crying as long as it clears your mind.
During that time I withdraw myself from the world and just be alone. A break you might call it. But no matter how long are your problems, you got to confront them. You can't just avoid them.
That break is like living in a bubble, everything is so quiet and perfect around you but as soon as reality pops it everything is back as it was. But that bubble helps you clear things up. I usually and MOSTLY over think everything. So that bubble is like a way to cleanse myself, look at things from another perspective after calming down and getting a grip.
Everything in this bubble just shares what I'm feeling with me, as if it knew what I'm going through. Everything just becomes blue like me.
Sometimes, when I'm sad, I listen to sad songs and watch a sad movie and end up being sadder and depressed and let everything go downhill. I usually cry it out because there's no shame of crying as long as it clears your mind.
During that time I withdraw myself from the world and just be alone. A break you might call it. But no matter how long are your problems, you got to confront them. You can't just avoid them.
That break is like living in a bubble, everything is so quiet and perfect around you but as soon as reality pops it everything is back as it was. But that bubble helps you clear things up. I usually and MOSTLY over think everything. So that bubble is like a way to cleanse myself, look at things from another perspective after calming down and getting a grip.
Everything in this bubble just shares what I'm feeling with me, as if it knew what I'm going through. Everything just becomes blue like me.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Make A Wish
Today is 11/11/2011, pretty cool eh? It's nothing special just looks cool. Supposedly at 11:11 AM people all over the world will wish for something because it's a lucky number or something. I don't really believe in these stuff because if they were for real then I would've been a millionaire living in a mansion.
Shooing star, 4 leafed clover, Rabbit's foot, A golden cat, Ladybugs, Horseshoe are just some of the items from all over the world that supposed to bring "good luck". I personally wish whenever I see a shooting star, but when I see it I go Like, " OH! A Shooting Star! Err I Wish For....err..err...crap -.-" and it goes away before wishing for anything.
On the other hand, some items are considered to bring BAD luck, Like seeing a black cat (by the way I wanna buy a black cat and name it Midnight) or Breaking a mirror brings 7 years of bad luck or the number 13 or anything.
A Fact about me, whenever I wish something I never wish it for me, I usually wish for my mom or brother or someone dear to me. Maybe, Just Maybe, someone out there is wishing something for you to happen.
Wishing for something isn't stupid, On the contrary! a goal is needed in life and the ambition will keep you going, But you gotta work for what you want not just wish for it. Life won't serve it on a golden plate.....maybe.....unless you were really really REALLY lucky. So It's ok that from time to time you close your eyes, believe and make a wish. But be careful what you wish for cuz you just might get it.
Shooing star, 4 leafed clover, Rabbit's foot, A golden cat, Ladybugs, Horseshoe are just some of the items from all over the world that supposed to bring "good luck". I personally wish whenever I see a shooting star, but when I see it I go Like, " OH! A Shooting Star! Err I Wish For....err..err...crap -.-" and it goes away before wishing for anything.
On the other hand, some items are considered to bring BAD luck, Like seeing a black cat (by the way I wanna buy a black cat and name it Midnight) or Breaking a mirror brings 7 years of bad luck or the number 13 or anything.
A Fact about me, whenever I wish something I never wish it for me, I usually wish for my mom or brother or someone dear to me. Maybe, Just Maybe, someone out there is wishing something for you to happen.
Wishing for something isn't stupid, On the contrary! a goal is needed in life and the ambition will keep you going, But you gotta work for what you want not just wish for it. Life won't serve it on a golden plate.....maybe.....unless you were really really REALLY lucky. So It's ok that from time to time you close your eyes, believe and make a wish. But be careful what you wish for cuz you just might get it.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Invisible
Hello? I'm over here! Can't you notice? What am I? Invisible? Nothing? Just air?
I don't like to be ignored. EVER. I feel Left out. Yeah I may be an attention seeker and be under the spotlight but sometimes it's just too much. specially if I'm being ignored by a loved one.
No Matter how much I yell, I'm not here. Sometimes I just end up being depressed and stuff but I really don't know. like when you're with your friends talking but no one's really listening or family but no one knows that you're really there. How can you be noticed? would you do ANYTHING to stand out? In School or home or anywhere?
I always wanted to be invisible as in the superpower to fool around and have fun and no one is actually looking at me, but there's a difference between being invisible and being ignored. being ignored hurts sometimes. maybe it's my lack of self esteem but it really does. It's like I'm Mr. Cellophane.
Friday, November 4, 2011
In Their Shoes
Yesterday I went to my Aunts' House, And on the way, the streets were jammed with cars. I looked around me and saw different people everywhere, And I wondered, " each one of them has his or her own story, I wonder what is it." looked to my right and saw couples fighting. looked in front of me and I saw a woman in her mid 40s carrying a baby and driving. Another car had a young woman fixing her make up.
What I'm trying to say is that each person has a story that you don't know. like the couples, you don't know what they were fighting about. Or the woman, why was she alone? where's her husband? is that even her own son? and so on.
Lately I've been telling my friends an advice, " Put Yourself in Their Shoes. " before judging someone because of a mistake they did or something that happened, put yourself in their place. look at yourself from another perspective. The last time I said that to a friend and telling him the situation from another side, he simply said " OMG! What Have I done. "
Don't judge someone before walking in their shoes. like see that kid you kept hitting? he had enough abuse at home. see that girl you call fat? she's popping pills. see that boy who you're laughing at because he's crying? his mom is dying.
"Walk a mile in someone's shoes before judging them. that way when you judge them, you have their shoes AND a mile away."
What I'm trying to say is that each person has a story that you don't know. like the couples, you don't know what they were fighting about. Or the woman, why was she alone? where's her husband? is that even her own son? and so on.
Lately I've been telling my friends an advice, " Put Yourself in Their Shoes. " before judging someone because of a mistake they did or something that happened, put yourself in their place. look at yourself from another perspective. The last time I said that to a friend and telling him the situation from another side, he simply said " OMG! What Have I done. "
Don't judge someone before walking in their shoes. like see that kid you kept hitting? he had enough abuse at home. see that girl you call fat? she's popping pills. see that boy who you're laughing at because he's crying? his mom is dying.
"Walk a mile in someone's shoes before judging them. that way when you judge them, you have their shoes AND a mile away."
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Countdown
You know that feeling when you're waiting for something you always wanted that you actually can't wait? That Eager fire starting in your heart (Not The Adele Type) that you just want that moment to come! Whether it's a certain date like a Birthday or an event or just a specific hour of the day for your favorite show or a big match coming or whatever.
That's when seconds become minutes and minutes feel like hours and hours are like....well long time.
We feel that feeling almost every day. We just hang on till a moment we cherish comes. When we are just students in the last period, we don't really focus on the teacher, we just wanna go home! specially if it's weekend, so we all go through that " Time Goes By, So Slowly.." moment.
On a bigger scale, we just wait for that special day to come. whether it's a religious occasion or just the day of the family trip or a flight you've been waiting for your whole life which is the beginning of a new chapter in your journey of life. When I was in the 12th grade and on the verge of graduation, only few days to finish the last high school exam in my life, I used to make a calendar. cut equal pieces of paper and write down numbers on them, and each day I Rip off one paper. I mean isn't our life just a calendar that every day we rip off a page? till no more pages are left?
When I was younger, I Used to Make use of studying. It's boring and you instantly feel sleepy when you look at a book but when you actually sleep you just don't feel sleepy anymore -.- anyways, I used to draw a robot, and to reduce the boredom of waiting, I used to color each part of it when I finish a subject. that way I can tell how much left for me to finish everything.
What I'm trying to say is that waiting is slow torture and boring, really boring. what do YOU do to pass time when you're waiting? Sometimes I just wanna yell at the thing or person that I'm waiting for, " DON'T KEEP ME WAITING!! "
What I'm trying to say is that waiting is slow torture and boring, really boring. what do YOU do to pass time when you're waiting? Sometimes I just wanna yell at the thing or person that I'm waiting for, " DON'T KEEP ME WAITING!! "
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Social Disease
Racism is a short word with a long history throughout the world. it evolved from simple differences between humans till it reached its shape in the latest centuries. and the most simple definition of Racism is to believe that a race is superior to another race. And while there are many differences among us, we're also very much alike.
Racism Differs too, I mean that it's different from someone to another. for some people it depends on the skin color or nationality, for others it's the sexual-orientation, for others it's the football or soccer team that they root for.
When I was in the first grade we had a very VERY dark skinned guy (AKA Black). I was Seriously scared of him and disgusted to even touch him ( I Was 6 years old, Sue Me. ) why? Because he was different. Later On I found out that he was actually like me and we're not so different. Nowadays he's my somewhat Best Friend.
So, "Don't Judge A Book By Its Title" ? maybe? Sadly here in Kuwait and I'm sure in other countries some people look down to others. just because S/He Is Different. As An Example The Maid Or The Driver. They are NOT slaves you know. they are human beings. just like you. but the difference is that they left their homes, families and everything, to come and serve you in order to have money and live a better life. another saying we have here or among the people I know when someone does something stupid they say " What Are You? An Indian? " that's TOTALLY Racist. Indians Aren't Stupid! Actually some of the greatest minds and most intelligent people are Indians.
An OTHER Discrimination Between us is the "I'm Sunni" "I'm She'ee" thing which are some "Branches" in Islam. instead of fighting each other we should focus on the greater cause! which is being there for the country.
Rosa Parks for example was the one who began the fight against Racism in USA just because she refused to give her seat on a bus to a white guy. Harvey Milk was the first openly gay man to be elected to public office. and of course the famous Dr. Martin Luther King. (Click On Each Name In Order To Know More)
I can go on and on and on about this topic because it will never end. but we can fight it, reduce it and try our best to stop spreading it.
"Racism isn't born, folks, it's taught. I have a two-year-old son. You know what he hates? Naps! End of list." ~Dennis Leary
Finally I just wanna say What I meant by the pic in this post, "No Matter Who You Are, Male or Female, Gay Or Straight, Muslim Or Christian, Sunni Or She'ee. We Are All Humans In The End. Each Of Us Is Part Of The Bigger Picture. Yes We Might Be In Different Colors But We Paint The Painting. And Racism Is Just A Block In The Way. We Are Who We Are."
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Freedom
“Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes." ~ Mahatma Gandhi
What does Freedom mean to you? To me, Freedom means the state when you can do whatever you, whenever you want without affecting others or infringing their freedom or privacy. Well, that's MY perspective.
Everyone needs Freedom, Animals and humans alike. No one wants to be captivated nor held down. Specially teenagers. As A teenager you hate being controlled and always try to fight any kind of power, either if this power was your teachers in school or even your parents. I'm not telling you don't do it, Actually the opposite. Do it, but do it with class.
"Dear Parents,
Why don't you give me the freedom and privacy that I want? Why don't you let me live my life as I want? you lived yours so let me live mine now. I don't wanna be overprotected, living in your shadow for the rest of my life. I wanna shine on my own. Of course I'll make mistakes but, don't we all? Nobody's perfect after all. Yes I know that you love me but sometimes that's too much
~ Regards, a normal Teen."
When I was a kid, we had two bird pets. Dad used to cut the end of each wing. one day I asked why? he said " So It Doesn't Fly Away. " which means that it HAVE to stay. it can't fly. Its Natural gift! it can't use it. That's what parents do to us, Cut the tips of our wings so we can't fly away? but till when? We're gonna grow them back and leave the nest sooner or later.
In my last year in High school, My Physics Teacher - who was more like a father to us - told us a story. It went like this
" Once upon a time, there was a bear trainer. he had a bear whom he raised since he was a mere cub. they grew together and he always fed him and took care of him. One day the trainer was sleeping and there was a fly on his nose. The bear saw the fly and didn't want it to wake its master up, so the bear picked up a big rock and......you know the rest." then the teacher said: " The bear is us - parents - we love our kids so much that we hurt them, maybe not throw rocks at them but still, we never give them the chance because we say that they are still young."
So, I wanna tell every parent or adult or whomever there, Don't choke your kid with your love. Don't cut their wings. give them a chance. and I personally hate being overprotected.
What does Freedom mean to you? To me, Freedom means the state when you can do whatever you, whenever you want without affecting others or infringing their freedom or privacy. Well, that's MY perspective.
Everyone needs Freedom, Animals and humans alike. No one wants to be captivated nor held down. Specially teenagers. As A teenager you hate being controlled and always try to fight any kind of power, either if this power was your teachers in school or even your parents. I'm not telling you don't do it, Actually the opposite. Do it, but do it with class.
"Dear Parents,
Why don't you give me the freedom and privacy that I want? Why don't you let me live my life as I want? you lived yours so let me live mine now. I don't wanna be overprotected, living in your shadow for the rest of my life. I wanna shine on my own. Of course I'll make mistakes but, don't we all? Nobody's perfect after all. Yes I know that you love me but sometimes that's too much
~ Regards, a normal Teen."
When I was a kid, we had two bird pets. Dad used to cut the end of each wing. one day I asked why? he said " So It Doesn't Fly Away. " which means that it HAVE to stay. it can't fly. Its Natural gift! it can't use it. That's what parents do to us, Cut the tips of our wings so we can't fly away? but till when? We're gonna grow them back and leave the nest sooner or later.
In my last year in High school, My Physics Teacher - who was more like a father to us - told us a story. It went like this
" Once upon a time, there was a bear trainer. he had a bear whom he raised since he was a mere cub. they grew together and he always fed him and took care of him. One day the trainer was sleeping and there was a fly on his nose. The bear saw the fly and didn't want it to wake its master up, so the bear picked up a big rock and......you know the rest." then the teacher said: " The bear is us - parents - we love our kids so much that we hurt them, maybe not throw rocks at them but still, we never give them the chance because we say that they are still young."
So, I wanna tell every parent or adult or whomever there, Don't choke your kid with your love. Don't cut their wings. give them a chance. and I personally hate being overprotected.
Monday, September 26, 2011
The End
Everything must comes to an end...no matter what it is. Whether it's a beautiful moment, A memory carved in history or a life, Everything Ends.
Death Affects us all, in all of its forms...a simple withering flower loses its beauty and is thrown away...or as I do, I put it in a book so I can keep it as long as i can, But what if we can't swap what we lost like a dead pet or keep it forever like a flower, What if we lost a human being? Someone we used to see, talk to, touch, tease, love every day? we simply can't do anything and that's what hurts..we can't simply buy a new one from a shop or keep it in a book. we can't.
Among my never ending phobias is death. I've always been scared of death, the thought of losing someone I love. Tears won't bring them back, but they can make you feel better. You gotta know that whomever you lost is in a better place, no matter what they did, God never leaves anyone.
As for the stages of grief, they are:
1. Denial and Isolation
When you still can't believe that anything happened and you are expecting that person to come back anytime or s/he is just sleeping. you're denying that anything happened and everything is still the same.
2. Anger
When you finally realize reality and taste the pain and everything hurts because you weren't ready for this loss, no one is ready. Just then you'll be raging, at maybe anything, Destroy objects, Pushing people, cursing and swearing, whatever is your way to release your anger.
3. Bargaining
When you try to face the facts and try to take control of what's happening by wishing that you were there when the loss happened or wishing that you never have done something and be with the one you lost or anything.
4. Depression
When you slowly be wrapped by sadness and the feeling of being incomplete, that there's something missing but it's out of reach. you try to be alone, not caring about anyone, but sometimes all you need is someone to pour your heart to or just get a hug.
5. Acceptance
The Final stage of grief is acceptance, when you finally know that nothing can be done and this is just the circle of life. We are born, raised, live, settle in, have kids of our own, watch them grow till they can rely on themselves and live their own life and after that we simply...stop holding on to life, go to a higher place, immortality.
"Death is resented and feared because it brings an end to human joy, but it also brings an end to fear, pain and suffering." Iona Heath (Matters Of Life And Death)
I just wanna say to anyone who lost someone really close to their heart like a mother or a father or a relative or a friend or even a pet, "You are not the first nor the last, no one can make it up to you but only you can do something about it, let it go. don't hold on to the past, it will only distract you from your future. and no matter what happens, you are not alone."
Death Affects us all, in all of its forms...a simple withering flower loses its beauty and is thrown away...or as I do, I put it in a book so I can keep it as long as i can, But what if we can't swap what we lost like a dead pet or keep it forever like a flower, What if we lost a human being? Someone we used to see, talk to, touch, tease, love every day? we simply can't do anything and that's what hurts..we can't simply buy a new one from a shop or keep it in a book. we can't.
Among my never ending phobias is death. I've always been scared of death, the thought of losing someone I love. Tears won't bring them back, but they can make you feel better. You gotta know that whomever you lost is in a better place, no matter what they did, God never leaves anyone.
As for the stages of grief, they are:
1. Denial and Isolation
When you still can't believe that anything happened and you are expecting that person to come back anytime or s/he is just sleeping. you're denying that anything happened and everything is still the same.
2. Anger
When you finally realize reality and taste the pain and everything hurts because you weren't ready for this loss, no one is ready. Just then you'll be raging, at maybe anything, Destroy objects, Pushing people, cursing and swearing, whatever is your way to release your anger.
3. Bargaining
When you try to face the facts and try to take control of what's happening by wishing that you were there when the loss happened or wishing that you never have done something and be with the one you lost or anything.
4. Depression
When you slowly be wrapped by sadness and the feeling of being incomplete, that there's something missing but it's out of reach. you try to be alone, not caring about anyone, but sometimes all you need is someone to pour your heart to or just get a hug.
5. Acceptance
The Final stage of grief is acceptance, when you finally know that nothing can be done and this is just the circle of life. We are born, raised, live, settle in, have kids of our own, watch them grow till they can rely on themselves and live their own life and after that we simply...stop holding on to life, go to a higher place, immortality.
"Death is resented and feared because it brings an end to human joy, but it also brings an end to fear, pain and suffering." Iona Heath (Matters Of Life And Death)
I just wanna say to anyone who lost someone really close to their heart like a mother or a father or a relative or a friend or even a pet, "You are not the first nor the last, no one can make it up to you but only you can do something about it, let it go. don't hold on to the past, it will only distract you from your future. and no matter what happens, you are not alone."
Sunday, September 25, 2011
L.O.V.E
" Love is a many splendored thing,
Love lifts us up where we belong,
All you need is love! " - Christian (Ewan McGregor in the Moulin Rouge)
Love is a very simple word, yet, it has a very big meaning. but what is love?
Love can be so complicated. I'm not a psychiatric but I AM a human....I think, And humans feel! and Love can vary from a person to an other. Some explain it like butterflies in their stomachs, Others describe it as a kick in the head And some say it's like a kick in the balls!! well, Love can be just the warmth inside. And love isn't just for lovers and people in relationship. Love can reach anything, Alive or dead. I can say " I Love Ice Cream and chocolate. " and I really do ._. or Love as in " I Love my mom and dad. " see what I mean?
As For Love Between Lovebirds, Lovefishes and Wuvvy Doveys it can be living in heaven or living in hell. Depends on the couples. a relationship is built on giving and taking! you can't just be a sugar daddy or a gold digger....if you know what I mean. The Key to a successful relationship is being in the other person's shoe and understanding each other, try to make each other happy, caring, and even the small stuff counts like just listening what the other have to say.
There's a fine line between Love and having a Crush. A Crush is a whole different world, just don't hesitate and make a move!! Rejection hurts but just give it a try, S/he might be the one.
Love.....can be a cure, gives you a reason to wake up every morning, A reason to smile, A reason to just hang in there...no matter how hard the situation was, Love will keep you going. Whether it's love from your family, friends, Boyfriend, Girlfriend or even pet.
I'll try to make this a habit and post a song related to the post :p
This time, I couldn't think of a song beside this one. and thx to @_meeno who reminded me of it :D again, From my favorite movie " Moulin Rouge " I present " Elephant Love Medley"
Love lifts us up where we belong,
All you need is love! " - Christian (Ewan McGregor in the Moulin Rouge)
Love is a very simple word, yet, it has a very big meaning. but what is love?
Love can be so complicated. I'm not a psychiatric but I AM a human....I think, And humans feel! and Love can vary from a person to an other. Some explain it like butterflies in their stomachs, Others describe it as a kick in the head And some say it's like a kick in the balls!! well, Love can be just the warmth inside. And love isn't just for lovers and people in relationship. Love can reach anything, Alive or dead. I can say " I Love Ice Cream and chocolate. " and I really do ._. or Love as in " I Love my mom and dad. " see what I mean?
As For Love Between Lovebirds, Lovefishes and Wuvvy Doveys it can be living in heaven or living in hell. Depends on the couples. a relationship is built on giving and taking! you can't just be a sugar daddy or a gold digger....if you know what I mean. The Key to a successful relationship is being in the other person's shoe and understanding each other, try to make each other happy, caring, and even the small stuff counts like just listening what the other have to say.
There's a fine line between Love and having a Crush. A Crush is a whole different world, just don't hesitate and make a move!! Rejection hurts but just give it a try, S/he might be the one.
Love.....can be a cure, gives you a reason to wake up every morning, A reason to smile, A reason to just hang in there...no matter how hard the situation was, Love will keep you going. Whether it's love from your family, friends, Boyfriend, Girlfriend or even pet.
I'll try to make this a habit and post a song related to the post :p
This time, I couldn't think of a song beside this one. and thx to @_meeno who reminded me of it :D again, From my favorite movie " Moulin Rouge " I present " Elephant Love Medley"
Friday, September 23, 2011
The Green-Eyed Monster
"Green-eyed monster" That's what William Shakespeare used to refer to Jealousey, and since then the color green has been associated with jealousy and envy, from which the expressions "green with envy", are derived.
Jealousy...jealousy...jealousy...jealousy. What IS jealousy? it's an emotion, that's all I know, BUT, jealousy differs from a situation to an other! like there's the normal everyday jealousy between girls " oh look what she's wearing, omg her hair...etc," or the Rivalry between Colleagues about who's getting more grades or who's more popular. and there's the jealousy between lovers....the worst.
Jealousy in a relationship is like a crack in a mirror. can't be fixed. and once it's there, the image won't look good anymore. even in a relationship, Jealousy differs. the normal "you can't touch this" jealousy, the "doubt" jealousy and the worst one which is " blind jealousy". Blind Jealousy seriously the worst, why? cuz I have it. not really in relationships but as in overall. I hate when I see people around my friends, or strangers playing with my close baby relatives, ya I know they are just cute cuddly kids but I just get in defensive mode. call me selfish or overpossessive but it's just the way I am.
I really don't know what the hell I'm doing in this post but I just felt like sharing. Jealousy kills. believe me. just the thought that the someone you love (Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Whoever) is with someone else...that kills.
and it will drive you mad. even if you looked cool and nothing's wrong with you....you're burning inside. I don't have a solution for it but if you do then please share.
this song (El Tango De Roxanne) from my Favorite movie (Moulin Rouge) , describes what I mean. " Jealousy....will drive you.....MAD" it's my personal favorite scene.
Jealousy...jealousy...jealousy...jealousy. What IS jealousy? it's an emotion, that's all I know, BUT, jealousy differs from a situation to an other! like there's the normal everyday jealousy between girls " oh look what she's wearing, omg her hair...etc," or the Rivalry between Colleagues about who's getting more grades or who's more popular. and there's the jealousy between lovers....the worst.
Jealousy in a relationship is like a crack in a mirror. can't be fixed. and once it's there, the image won't look good anymore. even in a relationship, Jealousy differs. the normal "you can't touch this" jealousy, the "doubt" jealousy and the worst one which is " blind jealousy". Blind Jealousy seriously the worst, why? cuz I have it. not really in relationships but as in overall. I hate when I see people around my friends, or strangers playing with my close baby relatives, ya I know they are just cute cuddly kids but I just get in defensive mode. call me selfish or overpossessive but it's just the way I am.
I really don't know what the hell I'm doing in this post but I just felt like sharing. Jealousy kills. believe me. just the thought that the someone you love (Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Whoever) is with someone else...that kills.
and it will drive you mad. even if you looked cool and nothing's wrong with you....you're burning inside. I don't have a solution for it but if you do then please share.
this song (El Tango De Roxanne) from my Favorite movie (Moulin Rouge) , describes what I mean. " Jealousy....will drive you.....MAD" it's my personal favorite scene.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Smile
In my last post I said that you should smile, so I mentioned in this post WHY you should smile :D
A smile is the shortest distance between peoples' hearts. It's understood by everyone despite their culture, race, religion, sexual orientations or age! It doesn't cost a thing, whether you are rich or poor a royal or a commoner, a smile won't cost a thing.
Smiling raises your self confidence and esteem, I tried it myself when I had to give speeches and presentations, don't fake a smile just do it! if you really love what you are doing then it won't be fake, it'll make you look more friendly and charismatic.
Yes there are some dark days and times but sometimes we can't do anything about it...so just smile and know that there are better days coming. Don't let a simple thing ruin your whole day. Smile and carry on. even if you lost someone dear, know that they are in a better place, resting. we can't bring back the dead so don't hold on too much to the past, instead, face the future and smile. we all die in the end.
Everyday, I listen to this song in the morning smile and hope for the best.
A smile is the shortest distance between peoples' hearts. It's understood by everyone despite their culture, race, religion, sexual orientations or age! It doesn't cost a thing, whether you are rich or poor a royal or a commoner, a smile won't cost a thing.
Smiling raises your self confidence and esteem, I tried it myself when I had to give speeches and presentations, don't fake a smile just do it! if you really love what you are doing then it won't be fake, it'll make you look more friendly and charismatic.
Yes there are some dark days and times but sometimes we can't do anything about it...so just smile and know that there are better days coming. Don't let a simple thing ruin your whole day. Smile and carry on. even if you lost someone dear, know that they are in a better place, resting. we can't bring back the dead so don't hold on too much to the past, instead, face the future and smile. we all die in the end.
- "Peace begins with a smile." ~Mother Teresa
- "Smile, it lets your teeth breathe." ~Author Unknown
- "A smile is a curve that sets everything straight." ~Phyllis Diller
- "Smile, it enhances your face value." Truvy (Dolly Parton) in 'Steel Magnolias'
Everyday, I listen to this song in the morning smile and hope for the best.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
A Cry For Help
You know that feeling when you think that the whole world is against you? That you are completely alone and no one understands you? And If you said anything people will say you're a brat and a rebel but if you didn't they'll say you're weak with no character? Yea, I HATE IT.
I've been having these mood swings a lot lately, I just feel down, hopeless, desperate and just...dead. I feel that no one will get me and no one will ever understand what I mean. A Million things on my mind and I feel the pressure that holds me down but no one believes in me, Not even those who are close to my heart.
But you know what? Screw everyone. YOU are the one who matters, It's YOUR life so live it as you want. Don't let people live it for you, Not even your parents. Ya call me a teenager but I want to live, Breathe! Give me my own privacy, Respect me like I respect you! Listen to what I have to say. Let me live. I'm not perfect, No one is, So I have to make mistakes to learn who I am. I want to have my own experiences to share. So what if I screwed up? It's not the end of the world! Don't make a big deal out of nothing, EVERYTHING can be solved if you just thought about it. School Problems? Organize your time and pick your friends wisely. Family Trouble? IGNORE! Specially your parents if they are giving you a hard time, You'll grow up and understand it later, they love you so much that they are killing you, Just reply with yes, no and thank you. Don't raise your voice, keep calm and prove them wrong. Have a heart-to-heart talk. And learn to let it go, Just let it go. Holding on won't solve anything, Forget your problems and worries and just let it go. Consider that each new day you're blessed to live as a new page in your book of life, You can write whatever you want in it. Just make sure that it's something memorable and it will make you proud when you look at it. and don't forget to smile! it's your only weapon in this life :D!
Baby Steps
"Journey of a thousand miles begin with a single step" - Confucius
Everything starts with something!
A tree starts with a seed,
A building starts with a brick,
An ocean starts with a drop of water,
And a blog starts with a post.
So here I am posting my first post and taking
my own baby steps into the world of blogging!
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